Rambling Shambles

What a blasted conundrum I've found myself in
over a series of events,
some rather unfortunate of late,
I have been hurt
and become very confused.

Seeking counsel of others
asking them to fix this problem
and recieving different solutions.

Solutions to this equation are more often
than not
easier to talk about
than to put in to practice.

For example, "Just stop"
very wise words
though seemingly impossible to start.

How does one 'Just stop'
just put an end to
or give up on something
that began so long ago?

The goodness of stopping,
would benefit in self preservation,
but what of the others involved?

That's only one option of course,
although probably one of the most sensible
it's the one which will take the most
discipline and warring prayers.

Another way is to continue in love,
which, at the moment, is one sided
and causing me to be hurt.

My love won't ever stop,
but the efforts I've been putting forth
must
for I must also guard my heart above all else.

So this blasted conundrum I've found myself in,
has no easy answer
and I must deal with the choice I make.

May 25, 2007

Travelling the Road Called Life

So many people
travelling on the road of life
with busy schedules and agendas
dictating their every step
occasionally meeting another on the path
with time enough to chat
leaving their mark on the other's life
without time enough to clean up the shadows
we fear getting too close
for fear of getting hurt
and fear of the others finding who we really are
so we continue on our way
quickly side-stepping around intimacies
putting forth the accepted formalities
not realizing that there may have been one
in desperate need of a shared intimacy
who may have only needed a smile, a touch
or a shoulder to cry on
would it have been so hard
to share a bit more time?
Time is money, and we choose to spend it
not sharing freely
and so there are those out there
travelling alone and hurting
becoming victims of their own demise
leaving crosses along the roadside
which are duly noted
and then passed by
what will it take to offer hope to the ones still travelling?
We've become cynical and jaded
thinking others expect to get something for themselves
everytime they offer generosity with a genuine heart
we push them away
and walk away with our backs turned
carrying our wounds with us
passing by the ones who've met a dead end
not imparting wisdom to those at a fork in the road
we must realize the most important thing
this a shared journey
we are not alone
Dear traveller on this road called life
you are not alone
reach out to someone
and you may find
they were in need of someone too

May 19, 2007

Trust

You had it
you built it
you stretched it
to the border's limit
You tested it
you abused it
you took it
completely for granted
You used it
you twisted it
you manipulated it
for your own purposes
You had it
you lost it
you want it
but can't have it back

May 7, 2007